On Expectations
On Expectations The first time I started questioning my sexuality was when I was 13. I remember that my best friend had found a porn channel in the TV box set of his grandfather. I remember the rush of adrenaline rushing through my bloodstream for doing something as transgressive and exciting. But I remember that watching those naked women flaunting their bodies wasn't as exciting as I thought it would and should have been. Yes, they were naked - but what about it? Yes, their breasts were exposed for us - but what about them? I also remember looking at my friends and seeing a different excitement on them. I think this is the first moment that I can pinpoint in my timeline where I started questioning my sexuality. Then I think about moments before that one and I try to pinpoint when did I "become gay". I remember when I was about 6 years old, playing with a Harry Potter figure and an Action Man figure and making them kiss each other. I also remember the picture of...